Lost in Time

I'm lost in a place I once knew so well. This was the place in which I grew up, the place where I have some of my greatest memories. Home. Some say, "Home is where the heart is." Where is my heart? Sometimes, I'm not sure. Of course, Heaven will one day be my forever home, but where is my physical home. I live at college most of the time, but when I visit "home," it feels just like that...a "visit." It's no longer the place where I spend most of my time, or even where I sleep. There are times when I say, "I just need to go home." I need that comfort of being home with my family in a place with people and places that are familiar. I do feel comfort when I see the country that surrounds my home. It's like a breath of fresh air. But, when I get back to school, it is nice to be back with the people that have now become my home. My close friends are the ones who make college my home. It is not the buildings  no certainly not, but the people who make me feel comfort. I'm completely fine with not being home--the place where I grew up, as long as I know I have a family who loves me no matter where I am, and I do. 

There are people that I have met coming to college that have become some of my best friends that I hope will be in my life for a very long time. People come and people go. That is a concept that I have the most difficulty grasping. I understand it, I just don't want to accept it. When relationships end, I try everything in my power to fix it. Though some things just can't be fixed. My best friends in high school I barely talk to, definitely not friends from earlier than that. But my college friends, I want those relationships to last! My best friend is always talking about how she wants to become a movie star and go to New York or California. I always joke about distancing myself now so that things won't be harder when she later becomes famous and has to leave me forever. I don't want to lose her as a friend, and I refuse to. One of the most important guys in my life has tried to leave my life a number of times, but he hasn't yet succeeded. I say I can live without him, and I can, I just don't want to. Another one of my really good friends is from the middle of nowhere 1,826 or so miles away. I hope to remain friends with her for a long time as well. I have also met new people one of which has become an amazing friend already and I hope it stays that way. Each year, people enter and exit our lives and we are forced to be okay with it. Or are we?

I try to stay in touch, but laziness, and the business of  life gets in the way. I always try to remember that God puts people in our lives for a reason. Everyone we meet has a purpose in life. Whether we are helping them, or they are helping us. Regardless, those people help shape us into who we are today. I am definitely not the person I was when I first came to college, and I hope to continue to grow up and mature and grow in Christ throughout life. Meeting new people can be scary, but most of the time is one of the greatest things in life. Treasure the moments you have with friends and family and know where your heart lies.