"Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty, Who was and is and is to come, with all creation I sing praise to the King of Kings, You are my everything and I will adore You." Today I am very thankful for God and His amazing power! I woke up this morning in a mood that was not so pleasing. I was and still am dealing with feelings of anger and bitterness towards some situations in my life. So, this morning as I was walking to class feeling more anger than I should have been feeling, I prayed. I asked God to change my attitude. Only God has the power to do that. I should not have been acting the way I was. However, part of me didn't want to change my attitude. I felt that it was a righteous anger....but looking deeper into the situation, I realized, it was not. I was feeling as though I should call people out and get revenge. That was so wrong of me. Honestly, what I need to do is pray for these people and situations that have angered me. I don't know what is going on in a deeper level. I should pray that God works in their lives and works things out to their benefit, not my own. I'm thankful for the insight that God has shown me. This doesn't mean that I am not still bitter and angry because, unfortunately, I am. It only means that I am taking steps to work through these feelings. I am hoping to look past them.
Many times when we ask God to help us and change our attitude, we have to be willing to move past what we are feeling at that moment. If we aren't willing to make that change, then God isn't going to just give us what we want. We have to want the help and want the change. Often, I want to wallow in my own pity and just feel bad about things, but I honestly have no reason to do that. For me, I need to just sit and soak in my pity before I'm ready to talk about it, but that's a little different. People in our society today are not willing to move past things. If someone treats us bad, we hold grudges. If something goes wrong we throw a fit until we get our way. This is not what God says we should do. If someone hurts us, we should forgive and move past it. I don'd believe you should forget it completely, but you should be able to get to a point where it doesn't come up all the time, where it doesn't bother you so much. We should not hold grudges. It is a waste of time and energy. Never go to bed angry. Of course, we all want our way sometimes, but we should be willing to swallow our pride and let someone else have their way. Throwing a fit is immature and looks bad on your part. I am so guilty of all of these things.
I am also known for forgiving too easily. Is there such a thing? I am still not sure. Some things are hard to get over, God gives the strength to move on. Holding grudges is not something I do. Well, I try not to. People have hurt me in the past, but usually when they apologize all I say is, "It's fine." Perhaps I should give them a harder time about it, but maybe not. Carrying that weight around is not something that is easy, it's not fun. It takes a lot for me to stay mad at you. Tell me a joke after making me mad, and we're good. I find it hard to stay mad at people because I don't like when people are mad at me. God tells us to forgive and why shouldn't we? He forgives us so much more than we could ever deserve. We deserved to be punished but God loves us so much that He took that punishment for us. That is amazing! God's love is so miraculous and incredible. My challenge is to pray more and be willing to accept change, accept that God wants each of us to be happy. Forgiveness is hard, but put yourself in another person's shoes and see how that walk is.
"God never gives us more than we can bear, and He will let us bend, but He will never let us break"
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