Worry Warts Anonymous

I’m tired of worrying. Why do I do it? It’s not helping anything. In fact, it’s hurting me more than anything. There’s nothing I would love more than to fix everything that is going wrong in my life right now. But….I can’t do anything. The more I try to fix things, the more they get messed up. It is not my place to fix things. It’s God’s. I don’t want to give up on trying, I want to fix everything! I’m tired of being frustrated and upset with things. God tells me not to worry about anything. However, all I ever do is worry. I have the hardest time letting things go, but until I let it go, I will always be bothered by it. I am only hurting myself when I don’t give things over to God. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know how to let things go.

I look into things more than I should and I always think about things in the worst way. That way, if I have my expectations low enough, I’ll never be disappointed. If something happens, I always think the worst case scenario. I think as a girl especially, I worry more than I should. Things that no one else really even thinks about worrying or getting nervous about makes me anxious in every way. It’s so stupid, and I know it is, yet I still cannot get rid of the anxiety.  I trust that God knows what He is doing, but I have a problem with wanting to fix it, or just not being able to accept things that I want to change.

Change is one of the things in life that I have the hardest time dealing with. When people that were in my life, leave or if the place that meant so much to me for so long changes, I don’t handle it well. I like consistency. Inconsistent people and things drive me absolutely crazy. God is always consistent. He never changes; He is always the same amazing Creator that loves each and every one of us more than we will ever be able to comprehend. I love that. I know that I am not always consistent. I want to be happy all the time, and most of the time I am. Sometimes, however, I just feel like I can’t be happy. There are people all over the world who have less than me and have things so much worse off than me and they are constantly happy, or at least try to be happy with their surroundings. That makes me selfish. I am full of pride and I am too busy soaking up the negatives in my life to realize how good I actually have it. I should choose to be happy. I have God, an amazing family, and great friends that I should be completely happy with. Sure we all have those days when we just feel like having a pity party, but when those days come, we need to thank God the most and ask Him to change our attitude to being happy with how much He has blessed us.

No matter what happens in life and no matter what crap life throws at me, I know that God will always be there, and that makes everything okay. I must choose to be happy in every circumstance. He will take care of things, He will take my burdens, and He will make me joyful. I hope to spill that joy out to others and not dwell on the negatives that I so easily and so often tend to do.

Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”