It happens

"I don't need you, I only need God. But because of God I have chosen perfectly." This was a quote I found on Pinterest. Yes, it was about marriage, but it was definitely something I needed to see. All too often I find myself thinking that I need others to complete myself, but I only need God. I feel like I need the guy that I've completely fallen for but can't be with, or the friends that have given up on trying to have some sort of friendship. As humans and sinners, we try to use others and other things to complete us. Those things and people will leave us feeling complete for a while, but it will soon fade. God is the only One who will leave us feeling complete and whole and full of JOY. When I feel like talking to that guy or trying to fix that friendship again, I have to remember that God has me and He is going to fix things the way they need to be fixed.

 For a while I thought I couldn't even remember how to live life without certain people in my life, but in reality, I just wasn't trying like I should have been. My prayer saying God please help this or that to happen is not what my prayer should look like. I should instead pray that God's will be done and that my wants and desires match His. I know what I want my life to look like. But, if it's not what God has in mind, then it is nothing. 

We all have plans for our lives, but God tells us not to plan. Only He knows what tomorrow holds. I have never been a big planner because I've always seen how God flips plans around. God will direct your paths. I want to learn to accept things I cannot change. This is one of the hardest things to do, in my mind. I try to take control all too often, but God is teaching me to rely on Him. He has given me great JOY that will last an eternity. No matter what happens, I know that God is planning out my life perfectly. Whether I get to be with that guy...or not. Whether those friends and I will ever be friends again...or not. Whether I continue my education in the same way I want...or not. He know's what He is doing and I have to accept it. God, grant me a heart of acceptance.

 Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."