"I'm Happy"

I am happy where I am. It's something we say when we feel at peace with how things are going, but often after its said, it's like waiting for the storm to come. Things are going so well right now, but what about tomorrow? Will tomorrow be the day when trials will come? Far too often when things are going well I find myself waiting for bad things to happen. Lately, I catch myself wondering when the bad will come, and when it doesn't come, I bring it upon myself. What is this nonsense?? Why would I mess up a great time in my life like that? Because if I start to make things not so great then it will be me who messed it up and me who can fix it again. This is wrong of me. God wants control of my life. Why is it that I can't let go and let God? It would be a much simpler life if I just gave God control of everything in my life, but taking that leap of faith is breaking me. It's making me realize just how scared of heights I am. It's not just a leap of faith, it's a jump off of the high dive into the love of Christ. Talking about it seems so easy. Just give it to God, right? No. If only it were that easy. Maybe I make things harder than they have to be, maybe I don't know how to give things to God. Nevertheless, I need to pray that God will help me know how to surrender all things to Him. 

Things in my life are good right now. I am happier than I have been in a while. I have let go of things that for the longest time held me back. I have opened the door to new things, and am pleased with life where it stands right now. That doesn't mean I don't have bad days. It doesn't mean my life is perfect, because it is far from it.  It just means that I have decided to look beyond those imperfections and be happy with my life. Complaining gets you no where. I complain far too often, when in reality, I have it better off than soo many other people. I have amazing friends and family! I go to a great school. I have a God that loves me no matter what! Things are good. I am beyond thankful for all of the lessons God has taught me. He has been and is currently working in my life in ways that I could never have imagined. He has great plans for my life. I may be confused now about what will happen in a few years, but if I put that trust and faith in Christ, then He will lead me in the right path. Trusting that God has got me in His hands and that His plans for me are better than my own is the thing that will keep me sane as I go through this crazy thing through life. Nothing is easy in this life, but if we have God helping us and guiding us every step of the way then we can take a deep breath and know that we can accomplish anything!

One thing that I have realized lately is that if I had only listened to God before, things would be much easier. One thing in my life I knew God was telling me to get rid of but I didn't until recently. Now that I have, I feel soooo much better. This thing was not bad, just not right for me. I feel better knowing that I listened to God and I can't wait to see what He has planned for me! Listening to God is the best thing we can do as Christians. It's not always easy, but is always for the best! Remember God's love for us and stand firm in Christ! :)